My take on love....

I thought of blogging about my take on love today.

I've had my fair share of painful experiences, but I still like thinking about it all.
Am I an idiot? No. I was in love and its perfectly fine to be mad about someone. Its a happy feeling and believe it or not, it took me almost six months to realize, nobody is capable enough to snatch that happiness you get from thinking about the moments you spent together or convince you to give up on the feeling altogether.

My friend once explained:

We all want to fall in love. Why? Because that experience makes us feel completely alive. Where every sense is heightened, every emotion is magnified, our everyday reality is shattered and we are flying into the heavens. It may only last a moment, and hour, an afternoon. But that doesn't diminish its value. Because we are left with memories that we treasure for the rest of our lives.

Love gives you the most unforgettable memories of life. There are times when people talk like-

 Girl:  marjaa motu!! :P
           haah!
           i'll be the happiest person on earth
           :D
 Boy:  if that is the case
           then I will die RIGHT NOW
           cause I wanna see you happy, even if my death brings that to you :)

And there are times when they don't wanna even listen to what the other has to say. Good or bad, jealous or romantic, every minute that you've spent together meant the world for you at that moment. Consider yourself lucky if you get to relive these moments and value every word that you speak to your loved ones. You never know what may happen next, and you might never again get a chance to explain how much you loved him.

My theory says, love is not your life. But, it is not much different either. Just as every moment of life isn't perfect, everything around love cannot be perfect. But when you don't stop living your life no matter how many hardships you have to face, how can you stop loving someone just coz the other one isn't with you anymore? :)

Times change, people change but feelings don't. They always reside in you. Things just get stacked over it and people say "feelings faded away".  Anything true that you've ever felt can never fade away.

The colors of love never fade ,never die ,they only become brighter as time passes by.

All those like me who feel something similar, don't shy away from the fact that you are madly, deeply and irrevocably in love, coz you didn't start loving him with a clause that he always has to be with you. :)

Happy 18! :)

Exactly 18 years ago, mom gave me the sweetest and the best gift of my life...YOU !!

I remember the first day I took you in my hands, so little, so soft, so cute.The day you came crawling up to me just to give me my fallen crayons. the day you we started sleeping in the same room. The way you used to get scared when you didn't see me around, your first day at school. EVERYTHING!

I had no idea what it meant to be an elder sister. All I knew was that I got a new toy, a live one to play along. Your cries, your laughter, everything was a part of the game for me till one day, I realized that you are actually another individual like me, who has her own needs, her own likes and dislikes, and her own ways to throw TANTRUMS! :P

Day by day, as I've seen you grow up, I've relived my life with you.
You are what people say, a blessing in disguise in my life, majorly because you've always taken up the blames for me just to save me from the scoldings. :D

We've had our share of fights, misunderstanding and our pillow fights (am sure Mom's gonna know exactly what happened to five of her pillows, after this) and I may never again agree to the enjoyment I used to get from all the pity issues between us, but I loved it all.

Today, as you turn eighteen and leave for college, you've made me realize how incomplete am gonna be without you.

We've shared our food, our clothes, our secrets ;) and most importantly, our lives. We've been each other's closest friends and confidants, and I'll make sure we'll remain the same, forever.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!

These are few of our most memorable moments together!! :)

 As you step into your own world today, all I want you to know is that, just like always, am always gonna be there for you. ALWAYS :)
 

Dream On

Before starting, I want you to do me a favour.
Close your eyes. Clear your mind. Think of one person in your life, just one, who changed it all for you. Think of one memory which changed the course of your life. Think of one thing you can give your life for. Think!

I am just another girl and the only word that really suits me is a DREAMER.
Yes, you read it correctly, dreamer it is. Now don't get all judgy as to what kind of a person would call herself a "dreamer". "Is she some kind of recluse? Or probably some junky writing while on drugs?"
Well am none. Am just a normal girl who loves dreaming. Fantasizing.

I have spent the past couple of days whining about how my life could have been better without a few people in my life. I keep rewinding the incidents in my life and thinking of better endings to it. Is that bad? Well I've been doing this since childhood but I never gave this a serious thought. Its a way to relax my mind. I like thinking. I like using my imagination to relive what has already happened. Its a way to release all my stress and tensions.

Now coming back to what I asked you to think about. Imagine that person standing infront of you. Think about the incident that involves him or her. You know it didn't go right. You wanted things to be right. To be perfect. Then what went wrong? Think. Imagine. Think what made it go wrong. Is there an alternate way out? Is there anything you could have done back then to change the course of events? Yes! There always is. You just need to think about it. Did you find one? Do it! Yes. You have it in mind. Now think about the course of events that might have happened had you chosen this path. Close your eyes. Give this a minute.

Had a better ending? Feeling relaxed?

My point here is that imagination is a part of our life. By imagining and dreaming things, we tend to wish that someday we want to be like this. Someday things are going to as perfect as we thought they will be. But let us always remember that life doesn't have a fairytale ending. We need to accept that sometimes. We have trials, temptations and failures. In real life, all people experience problems and we need to make decisions on our own on how to solve it. We don't need to be guilty of imagining. Its just another way of encouraging ourslves to do things correctly. We want to work hard because we are motivated to be like our idol, because we want every part of our life to be perfect. Let us just accept that things change and plans fail sometimes and we need to do things to recover our own mistakes and not thinking about them is just an escapists' attitude. We need to face every failure bravely.

I have regrets in my life. Everyone has a few. I chose not to think about them but it just cuts you out from the world. I didn't want to think about what happened. But it took away something precious from me, my peace of mind. Then I realized that courage is not just the absence of fear. It is about facing not just the challenges the world throws at us but also what goes on inside us.

Even great psychologists from all over the world agree on the fact that dreaming, imagining or fantasizing are greatest gifts living beings have got and it can be used as a cure to a lot of problems. One must know the power it posses.

It helped me and many others like me. I am sure it'll help you too.
So go on guys. Dream on! ;)

Turning 20

Just as every other student around me had dreamt about the perfect life after twenty, I too had a great picture in mind. A college I'd love, some awesome friends, a great life, a successful career and the most important of all, the satisfaction of following my passion, doing something I love, something I can die for.

My five friends and me, all from in and around Delhi had the same thoughts when we first entered the college campus. And after 3 years of successful struggle through B.Tech, here I sit at the same place where my friends and I first imagined what our turning twenty would be like. All twenty, ask them, is their life anywhere close to the perfect one they imagined, there are nothing but blank looks I get.

So what went wrong? Did they imagine something extremely superficial or something that can never be achieved or did they not work hard enough to deserve the life they dreamt of?

The answer is No. Like every other youngster in the world, my friends and me have strived to achieve what we wanted. Then why aren't we happy and satisfied? Its because we have been taught never to be satisfied with what we have achieved. I remember my parents saying "You did well sweety, but there is still scope of improvement." "You are capable of doing much better." "This is good, try getting even better at it." These words have sunk in so deeply over the years that most of us have forgotten the meaning of complacency or gratification. Moreover, the cut throat competition around us has snatched away the sense of contentment from us. We are always thirsty for more. Not that its a bad thing, after all you can only progress when you strive for more. But as someone very rightly pointed out, we have become a part of the rat race, and even if we win it, we still are rats.

So what do we do about it? Should we stop working to get more or should we stop wanting more or should we stop imagining the perfect life altogether? Is this what we get on our turning twenty?